I have a feeling that BDSM fetish will now be a mainstream and a talk of the town (or even the whole world) because of the movie ”50 Shades Of Grey”. I’m afraid that it would be done more frequently by partners, specially teenagers. What if during the session, the “master” might got extremely enjoyed while “playing” his/her “slave” or “object”. To those who are curious, I just wanna tell that it’s dangerous. Somebody already died practicing that fetish. It’s not even good to see or do a “master and slave relationship”. It will have a negative impact on our future generation.
But let me confess you something.
The first time I watched a porn movie was when I’m 8 y/o. Pretty young, huh? When I was growing up, I found my self imagining and looking for more porn, or at least sexy pics. At a young age I have watched some really violent movies with R-18 restriction. And maybe, those were the triggering devices that made my mind to play BDSM at a young age. I didn’t know that it was called like that, but I kept on imagining and having fantasies like that. Until the time internet was introduced to me when I was 1st year high school, things changed for me. I never searched “BDSM” (because i dont know it that time) on Google but I entered the keyword “violent sex”, and kaboom. Tied up, fully naked girls appeared next to the monitor. I can see tears and sweat rolling down to their cheeks while being tortured in many ways. I was really shocked. I felt cold. I thought that such things were just products of my imagination. But then it’s real. I clicked on a website. And then there I saw the initials BDSM which stands for Bondage, Domination, Sadism and Masochism. I explored the site. I saw beautiful and cute girls bound up and gagged. I entered a porn search engine and entered the magical 4 letter acronym. I thought my brain exploded at the back of my head when i first saw a video of it. I can’t take look at it for more seconds anymore.I know my conscience told me that it’s wrong to see porn but the heavier thing is, I have imagined that horrible events in my head though I was just an elementary student. I really felt pity for those girls being fucked up while tied down on a bed without a mattress, tied up in different positions on which they cant move and every time they move, they will moan like slave tortured in a medieval dungeon. Coincidentally, when I was watching Discovery Channel, the episode was about a criminal who kidnaps girls and torture them inside his trailer. Whew. That was the time I told myself “I will not watch porn anymore”. That promise was broken and changed to “I will regulate watching porn from now on”
Now that I’m a grown up, when I visit a porn site and a bdsm video catches my eye, I would first look at the thumbnails to see what kind of bdsm was that, how the girl looks and how long the video is. But I watch porn rarely, I have a life outside the computer.